I took my two older kids to church this morning. We always take a hiatus in the summer; the church changes their schedule from two Sunday services to one, and offers no religious ed classes during the one single service, so we stop attending. The one service seems to imply that they expect lower attendance in the summer and that’s fine, I told myself as I got dressed this morning, I have to get over the guilt that was ingrained into me growing up. Continue reading
Four years. 1,461 days. My baby girl, my first daughter, my Nelle Claudia Dej was born. She was given a name we had already picked out. When we brought home her ashes, it was to a nursery that we had already started to furnish. Continue reading
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I am counting the days, one by one, until September 4th. Nelle’s birthday. It will have been four years since she was stillborn.
That year, it was Labor Day weekend. So not only do I have the actual day, but everything surrounding Labor Day reminds me of that weekend. Continue reading
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Yesterday afternoon, the doorbell rang. It was in the middle of “quiet time” in our house, so Autumn was napping and Theo was down in his basement bedroom. Ger and Quentin were out spending some time together at an arcade. I figured that it was an Amazon delivery, but when I looked at the live camera from our Ring, I saw that it was a neighbor kid with his bike. I went down to answer the door. Continue reading
I didn’t write on the day that my rainbow baby turned two years old earlier this month. There was a party, and then her actual birthday, and then we left for vacation a few days later. I didn’t take the time out of the busy days to reflect on her the way that I should have. Continue reading