I had it all planned out. I knew that I would be meeting some people for the first time today, in a professional context, and when asked “How many children do you have?” I would answer honestly, the way that I always answer in my head. “I have five children. I have three at home and we lost two.” It is Iris’s birthday today and what better way to honor her than to say those words out loud. As I drove to the meetings, I practiced the scenario and the words over and over in my head. Continue reading
February 12th. The day of life-altering events. On February 12th, 2005, Ger asked me to marry him. And on February 12th, 2016, I learned that Iris had no heartbeat. Continue reading
We have “conversation starter” cards on our dinner table and every night we draw a card or two and go around the table and answer the question presented. Topics range from “if you could change one thing about your school, what would it be?” and “how do you think your life is different from your grandparents?” Continue reading
I never go into Chicago during the week, but found it necessary on Friday. I needed to visit some hotels as part of planning a work event. It was bitterly cold, and I knew the city, true to form, would bring an unforgiving wind. I planned the trip to avoid as much commuter traffic as possible, scheduling my first meeting for 10:30. Continue reading
I knew that there would be things I would just do, or handle differently with Autumn than with my bigger kids.
She slept in our room, in a bassinet for a few weeks. The bigger kids were in their cribs from Day One. But with her, I feared that she would stop breathing or something. Having her close to me made me feel better. Continue reading