The Last Thing I Did “Before”

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Everything happened so quickly in a matter of days in March.  As the news from Seattle grew more serious, with large tech firms ordering their employees to stay home, major sporting events, theaters, and other gatherings announced their closure.  “Social Distancing” became a term we all knew.  Various states began to put in place their own measures.

Yesterday I tried to remember: What was the last thing I did “before”?

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Knowing When Something is Off

2020-03-05 Knowing When Something is Off

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A few weeks ago, I felt like my heart was racing and I could not get calmed down.  I know the exact date: February 14th.  Valentine’s Day.  The day after Iris’s birthday.

Ger and I had spent part of the day in Chicago, having lunch.  On the drive back out to the suburbs, I felt it.  Like I could not catch my breath.  It was odd, since I had no reason to be upset or nervous – in fact, we had just spent a lovely morning together.  I brushed it off, wondering if perhaps I was getting sick. Continue reading

Recognizing That Reaction

2019-06-11 Recognizing that Reaction

About a month ago, I went through a very intense experience involving mental health.  Without going into details, I had to make some decisions, in the middle of the night, that I knew were going to have a lasting impact on the people involved.  I feared for my personal safety, and the safety of the people around me. Continue reading

When Anxiety Strikes Again

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When I was in sixth grade, I suffered from hives that covered my entire body.  They lasted for six months, unforgiving red circles that itched.  I saw doctors, I missed school – no one could figure out what was going on.  Finally, the pediatrician said “Let’s run a culture for strep throat – sometimes it can present with hives.”  Culture was positive.  A course of antibiotics later and the hives were gone. Continue reading