I was awake before everyone else and took a shower. I let the water run over me for what felt like the longest time, and then looked at the clock and realized that it had only been minutes. It occurred to me that I am expecting this appointment to be normal, but I really shouldn’t.
I let the water of my bathtub swirl around me, hoping that it would alleviate my headache. Impossible to ignore my increasing pregnancy shape. But I didn’t cry.