The Lie

2019-06-25 The Lie

I could not handle the day.  I had no energy.  It was one of those days where I simultaneously  expect the world to be accommodating, and know that they will not understand.  Too many weights on my shoulders about the future, and too many triggers this week about the past. Continue reading

At the Conference Again

I am incredibly tired.  After hosting a conference for two days, wearing heels that I do not normally wear and sleeping in a bed that wasn’t my own, I could probably nap for days before I feel rested.  But when I want to write about a particular experience, I find that it is best to capture as immediately as I can so as not to have the details dim.  Even if the details are already dim due to fatigue… Continue reading

Band-Aid

Band-Aid

I went for a walk today.  Third day in a row where I’ve managed a 30 minute walk.  At the advice of a friend, I started seeing a therapist to help me deal with my grief – I saw her last week, and again today.  She told me that on my walks, to look around as a child looks around when outside – noticing things that are weird, or out of place, or beautiful. Continue reading